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About naegun

I am a Korean man living in Jeju Island. My dream or goal is to become a poet and a novelist. I want to publish my works in two languages, my mother tongue, Korean and English. Why English? Because I want to move to English using countries like American or Canada or England,not sure yet which will be my second hometown, then I publish my books written in English and traveling all around the world. I have a few friend only in the United States, not other countries. But I would settle in Switzerland or Netherlands, if I were older like 65s or more. If I live there, I could learn other languages like French, Spanish, German, etc.

Married ladies can have crushes, too

write meg!

. . . Well — book crushes, that is.

My earliest relationships weren’t with actual boys, friends. I didn’t manage to catch the eye of the cute kid in math class or Peter Brady or even Daniel, the first boy to earn a sappy valentine in second grade.

They were with book characters.

LoveI fell for bookish leading men long before I dared to express my feelings to any real-life ones. Relationships in my favorite novels taught me about relationships in general, especially in those impressionable teen years, and I feel like I’m a better reader — and person — because of it.

Though I am, in fact, a happily married lady, my devotion to my flesh-and-blood husband does not negate the underlying passion I can feel for literary men. We’ve all been there, right? Sometimes you can’t help but fall into a bottomless pit of yearning for some…

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15 Layers of Irony


Roxy is gone, and I don’t know what to do except write.

We got set up on a blind date, if you can believe that. I was 16, still very much in the closet — even to myself, really. We got Thai food, and I felt awkward because I knew things were never going to work on a romantic level, so I was kind of a dick to her. She probably should have written me off as an asshole, but she didn’t. I think she recognized a kindred spirit, something I soon picked up on as well. As weird as it was to imagine dating her, it was even weirder to think of her not being in my life.

High school was not easy for either of us. The more we talked, the more we realized we liked each other more than almost anyone else we actually went to school…

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an short essay

I have never forgotten my dream

  After graduating from college, I got a job straight away.  I work for the local government . Since then,  20 years have passed. The young man in his late twenties has changed into a mid-forties father of two sons. I’ve been married for ten years.

However, for quite a long time now, I have felt that my choice of the current job was the young man’s big mistake. Unfortunately, that was an attempt to live up to the expectations of other people.

I feel like I don’t really have a choice–I need something different.  I mean, I have to report to work to earn a living and then what? When I get home, I have hardly enough enthusiasm and energy to give my family the attention they deserve.

I’ve come this close to quitting my job more times than I can count. This is a serious issue for me. I dread having to go to that stiff and rank-based impersonal system of the office.  I’m a stranger who quietly opposes the bureaucratic system that swirls around me like a typhoon everyday with its red tape, rank-based code and boss’s orders. But there’s nothing I can do about it. I jump through hoops all day in the name of some outdated process that someone with an important signature wrote down and ever since then it’s been treated like the word of god even though it’s inefficient and often straight up ineffective. I’m not allowed to think for myself. If I see a better way, forget it. Thinking critically and voicing my insights are not only unwelcome but that kind of attitude can get a man in trouble. And it’s sad but I’ve gotten in line. I’ve followed the orders. I’ve marched to the beat of my boss’s orders. Accept what I’m told and ask no questions. Just a “Yes, sir” and off I go to wait for the next payday. Make waves? Not me! You can’t change the system. Either deal with it or get out of the way. It’s a freight train and no one is going to stop it.

  I’m older and wiser and all the voices around me are getting quieter.  I can hear that the voice of my own heart which was so quiet before is calling loudly. The inner-calling from myself  has become louder and is hard to ignore. My inner-calling yells so loud it is the only thing I can hear sometimes.

 One day I woke up and I realized that I was forgetting who I really am. I became deeply depressed and I wondered if I would ever recover from my willing assimilation into that impersonal…no, inhumane and unloving system. So my inner-calling has been getting louder with each passing day.

Ok…I feel like I’ve been holding back from telling you what my inner-calling is (that wasn’t my intention). Anyway, it’s my dream to be a writer. I mean, quit my current job and write full-time. I’ve been working on a novel for many years and I think it has a chance.

Now I am telling you my future models.

 One day I was inspired by an American writer and am now striving to follow in his footsteps.  A few years ago I happened to learn about the Korean-American writer, Chang Rae Lee. I looked him up on Google. He was born in South Korea, but he moved to the U.S. with his family at three and grew up in the U.S. After college graduation, he became a securities analyst on Wall Street for one year. However, he decisively quit his decent job to become a novelist.  In 1995 he published his debut novel, Native Speaker.  Ever since  I discovered a copy, I have been newly motivated towards a new goal. That is to become a bilingual novelist whose books are published in both Korean and English.

Recently on the internet I was lucky to have a chance to know an American poet named Shin Yu Pai.  I visted her hompage and listened to her reading poems from College Visiting Writers Series.  I was greatly inspired by the poems.  I  soon  listed her as my future model.  Now I contact her regularly.    

 I can tell you with assurance that I am currently preparing to study in the U. S. where I will meet Chang Rae Lee and Shin Yu Pai and tell them my dream.

Thanks for reading my poor essay.